Have you ever held a corpse, amidst the haze of numbness? Do you know the feeling, when someone you love dies in front of your eyes? The feeling of desperation to trade places? The helplessness that is glued strictly to your spine and no matter how hard you try to push it away with your futile scream, it just stretches throughout your body and refuses to wear off? Have you ever seen your beloved gasp their final breath, slowly fading into the blank void, leaving you alone , only to regret that moment forever? Reminding you again and again of your insignificance in front of destiny's course. Have u ever looked death in the eye and been disappionted to have been left alive?
I have.
And life has never been the same again.
Every moment after that, is just a burden, a wretched liability, from which there is no escape. Everything you do and everything you feel becomes just too inconvenient for your own self. No matter how hard you try to move on, you cannot hide from your own shadow. Your life falls down to nothing more than a matter of disgust in your own eyes.
No, I dont say that life is fair, and I dont think that it should be. For no matter what you do throughout your life, you are supposed to be a wreck. And in the end you just die in the haze of nothingness, realizing you dint accomplish anything. For the only and ultimate accomplishment of a life is death. And you would never be there to bask in its glory. Everything else is just futile.
